Andrew Solomon discusses his own experience and his research into what happens when genetic predisposition to anxiety and depression collides with triggering life events.
As he says, ” The opposite of depression is vitality.”. And if you are depressed, thoughts can lie.
If this mirrors your own condition or you have questions ,seek help. Sometimes the one life you should save is your own.
I notice you are here today.
You want to wrap my heart in foil
or waxed paper like a burrito take-out
You want me to sit and warm the couch
to be still
to not let anything move
forward or back.
Yet fear grabs at my chest
sends my heart into overdrive
tightens my throat.
I am so tired.
I hear the little birds
and know it is Spring outside
and I imagine how I might venture out
and unwrap my heart and give it an airing.
And after that?
I dont know.
Lie down on the warm earth.
Let it support my body
Breathe for me.
at a time…